good = digest, bad = dump

At this stage of the pre-production stage, it's really exhausting at the same time stressful the planning process and making everything work out before we start shooting. Because of the budget constraints, the time limit, every needs to be perfect or at least we need to have patches to every wrong move that will be done on the production. I'm already feeling the moments why directors are bitchy especially on the indie films. Especially to the ones that are not used to pressure and multi-tasking situations...if you're the director/producer, everything will pass through you...all the decisions, all the problems all the pressure...but nevertheless all those negative aura are important and essential to be surpassed before I could consider myself as a true director.

I was warned before, that folks on the "higher" position will bug you, suggest crazy things, delude you to do something that they only think is good...but not necessary good for you. These factors are actually the most frustrating parts in the filmmaking process. I mean where's the independent filmmaking there when you want me to do as you like??? geezz...

But i'm not really stubborn on this matter, I know the fact that they know somethings that I don't know about filmmaking...yes, i'm considered as a young filmmaker...new...inexperienced compare to you. But I have my own vision and my own style, maybe it doesn't suit everyone, so be it. But I learned important things while undergoing in these situations, that ok you can tell me stuffs that you think could improve my film...I will listen and will consider em...I will nod, smile at you but inside my mind is a super powered idea filter that will digest helpful "cool" ideas and advices and the rest will be trash.

Just an advise to the others who are victimized by the authoritarianism system...good = absorb, trash = dump...but always smile!