I still feels surreal about the "director" thing. I still can't get into the reality of me being a will-be-director. You everything seems so sudden. A few years back I was still writing this script that no one cared about and now I'll be directing it and everyone of my close friends are excited about it. It's just feels so strange...writing and revising the script already felt like a daily routine to me, letting go of it feels uncomfortable. It feels like filming it was never part of the plan or maybe I'm just startled with the agony of the overall process.
Being called a director was just a dream. Filmmaking was just an aspiration, it's weird that poeple call me "direk" or "direk ian" the funny thing is that people sometimes make strange comments about me especially when I informed them about my great news on filming my script. Especially to those whom I haven't seen in a while. They will make those strange comments like: "wow congratulations! That's why you look like a director now." look like a director??? what does that mean?! I don't go around bringing a director's chair and a megaphone with me, I also don't wear sunglasses with a beret on my head and got a long hair and mustache. So what makes me look like a director?! Actually I wasn't offended by it at all but I must say I'm not a big fan of the stereotypical artist/filmmaker look. I mean, people got this idea of an artist look (long haired guy who got glasses, goatee and never took a bath) I mean we can do great films even though we don't have a ponytail and a goatee. We don't have to frame everyone using our hands in order to look like I'm creating a shot on everything. I mean it's just not me.
I still love wearing what I want and where I'm comfortable with. Being a filmmaker can only be seen on the films you made... If you've never done any films, you're not a filmmaker, period. and not on how you look like one. Maybe that's the beauty about filmmaking, is that it's an art form where we need to spend lots of effort, discipline, and an ocean of thoughts. That's why it is yet to become a mainstream "rock and roll" thing like the DSLR frenzy where rich folks call themselves photographers just because they got the money to spend on expensive camera equipments and accessories. And because of the digital thing, taking pictures became easier than making pancakes. But sorry not in filmmaking.
In a month or so, The production will already start and by that time is the only moment i could officially start my directing/filmmaking career. I will promise to do more than my best. I will make a potential award winning film, although it won't be a walk in the park. But I will surely squeeze out all my energy to make it a hella awesome film. As of now pre-production is still on the process. thinking, planning, allocating is still the common denominator on my present situation. Story board will be done this week!
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